Faint hope is still hope

Just when I was ready to give up! God surprises me again . . .

I'm still not sure that the conversation hubby and I had on Saturday was real. My husband actually apologized for not taking my requests to stay home more seriously, and he said he wants to do "whatever it takes" to follow the Lord's plan for the family. He said he's willing to work 16 hours a day to cover the house and bills so I can stay home and take care of my kids.

So now I'm fighting unbelief:

• Unbelief in him: he's made and broken promises time and again, but he's my husband and I love him enough to trust that God is working in his heart.
• Unbelief in myself: can I really do what God is asking me to do?
• Unbelief in God's power: I want to trust that He is working all of this out, but after 8 years of hoping it gets really really tiring.

I need to believe that this is just a first tenative baby step forward. I have to remember that my heart can deceive me, and that I just need to trust that God is moving.

He. Is. Moving.

So I started wondering to myself where I should turn for guidance. <<>>

I went to my favorite online Bible just now and found this:

“Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise. Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.”- Proverbs 19:20-21

Okay, seriously! He loves me that much, that He would put that verse of the day up for 'such a time as this.'

I know the Lord's purpose will prevail. I will continue to hope, and I will wait upon the Lord.

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